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Saturday, July 26th, 2008
1:01 pm
The Sidewalk Is Rushing At My Head Again
Random thing that makes me unhappy:
Feeling sick! Its been a freaking week! What the hell?!

Random little things that make me feel a little better:
1) DARK KNIGHT.
-Ok, so as far as I know, there has never been a comic book movie that has received as much praise and press as this film. A posthumous Oscar nomination for Heath Ledger?! My god, yes. This is one of the few big budget films this year that I feel has really lived up to its hype, and I'm so happy about it. Christopher Nolan, my cap is off to you for completely revitalizing a franchise that was previously abysmal.

2)Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog
-Welcome back, Mr. Whedon, we've missed you. I never knew just how that Neil Patrick Harris could sing, so that makes me really happy. Also, there has never been a time that I've been unhappy to see Nathan Fillion. I want there to be a soundtrack that I can purchase. "Its curtains for you Doctor. Lacy wafting curtains."

3) The Buffy The Vampire Slayer episode "Once More, With Feeling."
-Ahh Joss Whedon again. He should make more musicals.

4) Possible comic book collaborations
-I have two writers that want to work with me! yessss!

Current Mood: sick
Tuesday, June 3rd, 2008
2:40 am
Embracing the situation is our only chance to be free
As my second year of college comes to a close, I'm lead to yet another pleasant time of relaxation and reflection back home in the dry Arizona heat.
Whenever I first arrive back here, I feel a bit like I'm in some world that is entirely alien to me (a feeling not helped by the fact that I spent an entire day en route to this place). I always have to relearn things in the house: where the pots and pans are, the trick to unlocking the sticky side door, and how to phrase things so that I make my dad laugh instead of frown. I've been uncharacteristically lethargic since my eturn as well, I suppose it's compensation for the fact that I hadn't been sleeping nearly as much as I should have during finals and the few weeks prior to coming back. But seeing my parents, seeing familiar faces, and reminiscing makes me feel as if I've been gone so much longer than four months. Everyone even looks different.

Rosie is getting married at the end of this week, which is yet another indication that my friends and I are growing older. That's not to say that we're terribly old, but, in all honesty, in the next few years, marriage will start becoming common, and then soon enough, people will be buying houses, having babies, and starting new lives. It's already difficult to stay in contact with everyone, we're all so spread out throughout the country. Sometimes I catch myself cursing the fact that so many of my friends are so damned smart to have gotten into schools so far away from my own, but then I remember that I was the crazy one who moved to the other side of the country. I'm so excited and anxious for the future. It's similar to the feeling that I get at the beginning of a promising relationship: There's all the excitement of getting to know someone better, having all of the usual "firsts", but then there's also the anxiety of what the first fight will be about, or how long the relationship will last. Stupid life and its unpredictabilities.
It's been a good stretch for a while though. I'm glad that things have turned around since the beginning of the year.
It's been a rough one. So, it's nice to be able to sit back for a while, play with my crazy little dog, and just watch the clouds pass.


The streetlights glow
Comes and goes
When the sun comes back
As we all can plainly see
Embracing the situation
Is our only chance to be free
I’ll side with you
If you side with me

Current Mood: calm
Thursday, October 11th, 2007
1:11 pm
Small pleasures, who would deny us these?
Random little things that make me happy right now:
1) cuteoverload.com
-lately, when I've had a bad day, my friend Adam will cheer me up by sending me funny pictures of puppies. In all honesty, if you're ever grumpy, just try not to smile at pictures of puppies wearing nerdy glasses, just try.

2)pbfcomics.com
-honestly one of the more inspired webcomics that I read on a regular basis. They're always funny and the illustration is so good. Unfortunately, it doesn't update on a very regular basis, but when it does, it's been worth the wait.

3) amazon.com's "recommended" feature
-for a while it was a bit off due to the fact that the only movies that I ordered were "Angus", The "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" Trilogy, and "A Goofy Movie". Basically for a while it thought that I was a 12 year old boy, but after ordering different movies ("Children of Men", "Pleasantville", and "Death Proof"), it seems to be better tuned into the kinds of things I dig. Basically, tales of outcasts, dystopia, and cool soundtracks. hoorah.

4) Christopher Moore
-He wrote my favorite book, "Lamb", and ever since I've read that one I've been slowly going through his other stuff. I purchased "Island of the Sequined Love Nun", and it's pretty good so far, but I loaned it to Adam. I read through the first chapter or two of "Fluke" on the floor of Barnes and Noble the last time I was there, and have been reading excerpts from "Practical Demonkeeping". I dont know why he amuses me so, but he just does.

5) The Marvel Zombies series
-Thanks to my awesome exboyfriend Dale, who has loaned me the first and second hard bound editions of this, I've been devouring this comic ravenously (like a zombie might eat brains). The illustration is amazing, not to mention the covers, which reference old Marvel covers (I was particularly fond of the one referencing the original Wolverine publication, not to mention the one referencing the days of future past)
http://sushithegreat.com/media/ashmarvelzombies.jpg
http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/a/a9/Uxm141.png/275px-Uxm141.png
Also, the second edition of it was Marvel Zombies vs. The Army of Darkness. BRUCE CAMPBELL is in it. BRUCE CAMPBELL.

Let me say it one more time. BRUCE. CAMPBELL.

6) 1969 Black El Camino with white racing stripes and a red interior.
-It has just become my dream car.

7) The Office
-but that has made me happy for the past year. The UK office is pretty great, but it always made me slightly more frustrated than happy.

8) A Goofy Movie
-to be honest, I feel that this is one of the best Disney movies ever. I've been trying to figure out why its not terribly popular and realized a few things.
First, it's one of not many Disney movies with male protagonists, and (as was shown by the Disney club back in highschool), most Disney watchers tend to be young women who enjoy watching Disney princesses.
Second, it's actually set in a pretty realistic and recent setting. Basically the 90s teenager experience.
Third, It tried to repopularize one of the more misunderstood original Disney dudes, Goofy. Honestly, he was always my favorite. He knows he's, well, Goofy and not the smartest guy, but he still gives all of the love that he can. It touches my heart how much he tries to be a good single parent to Max.

I realize that Im analyzing this a lot... but yes, try to rent it or something, its a serious point of nostalgia and happiness for pretty much every one that I've reminded of its existence.

9) Free MFA tickets
- I love art school and art museums. Plain and simple.

10) October 21st Boston Comicon
-Probably going to be tiny, but I don't care. Im excited anyway.

11) Halloween is soon!

Current Mood: productive
Tuesday, July 17th, 2007
11:36 pm
MECHA SHIVA! MECHA SHIVA! MECHA SHIVA!

Sorry, the new icon makes me really happy.

Current Mood: mecha shiva!
Wednesday, June 20th, 2007
9:18 pm
Falling slowly, eyes that know me...
I just got back from seeing "Once" with KC, Lizzah, and Tibby. It effectively made it to my top ten within the first 30 minutes when the two main characters play piano and guitar together with perfect harmony.... it was just so beautiful. And of course, I cried. Im such a crier when it comes to certian films and of course when it comes to music. The whole film made me think of some of the most pleasant memories in my life. All revolving around music...

.When I was 16 years old, my mom took off to some conference leaving my papa and I to our own devices for about a week. Dad was out of the house for the most part; I would go to school during the day, and by the time I got home he would have to go to a gig. But one night out of the five day week, he had some extra time and we got to have dinner together. So we sat at the kitchen counter in the house that I grew up in, and he tuned his old guitar and played music. As he played I sang along with him, and we harmonized. It was one of those moments where we connected and understood eachother, played off of eachothers strengths and created something beautiful together.
.When I was 17, I went to Massachusetts for the first time for the Massart Summer Studios. While I was there, I made friends with a bunch of kids who were attending the Berklee summer program as well, all of whom were talented musicians. We would collect ourselves on street corners at odd times, toting instruments, and we would sing and play for hours. A few times we laid out a paper coffee cup and earned some money for our songs. Trev would often sing at passers by, random little free style diddies that always made people smile.

I have more music memories... some too personal to type out. But Im really happy right now just having thought of them.
Right now, I feel... very warm and content. I miss Boston, though. All my loves who are there. The MFA, the T, all my friends. Im so happy to be returning in a few months. I cant wait.

{Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now}

Current Mood: content
Wednesday, May 9th, 2007
2:54 am
Exodus
Caroline and Marie have officially moved all of their things out of the apartment... theyre gone now. It feels so strange. We all had this gigantic awkward time of trying not to cry at the departures. Tricia and I were horribly messy with sorrow for most of the night. I felt strange sobbing in front of her boyfriend, but he seems to understand that we need to let it all out.
At least Im feeling better than I did the other day. Im more confident in the friendships that Ive built up, I know everything will be ok. Things change, but if you make the effort to keep relationships going, you wont lose or ruin them.

Begun packing up all of my things even though Im leaving on sunday. It all feels very premature, pushing myself to leave this place when I see no huge reason to. Rationally, I wouldnt miss anything if I just stayed until the 19th when we're supposed to be out of the apartments. But flight arrangements have been made, friends are already planning events, and its time to face the music.... God, I know Ive been hanging out with Adam too much when I immediately think
"Do you hear that sound, Mr. Anderson? That is the sound of inevitability."
Gave him a ridiculously early birthday present today. He really enjoyed it, I got pretty much the exact response that I wanted.

Well, I should go to bed, even though it is currently covered with many things that will eventually be boxed up. *sigh* Let the exodus begin.


I find it funny that my emoticon for "Nostalgic" is a dude wearing a fedorah. It suits me well. :)

Current Mood: nostalgic
Saturday, May 5th, 2007
3:50 am
I'll be seeing you in all the old familliar places....
Having a bit of a tough time now. It's just my luck that as soon as I begin to feel completely comfortable and happy with my life here in Boston, I have to uproot myself for 4 months. I finally found people that geniuinely give a shit about me, which I never really thought I'd find, but time and distance change things. I worry that they'll forget me... that things will change irreparably.
Tricia and I were talking yesterday (Caro's last day) about how it feels like senior year all over again. Time moves so slowly when you want it to proceed, but when you finally find moments that you yearn to hold onto, they're ripped away from you as if they never even existed.
I'm going to miss Tricia so much. She's become like a sister to me in this past year... Im worrying already about how moving out will be... scared for having to say goodbye to her, Caro, and Adam. It's going to be hard.
Though I am happy to be returning home, a large part of me wishes that I could just stay. A friend said today that I should come back to Boston at some point during the summer, and also joked that I should just stay and live in his basement... part of me just wishes I could.
I feel as though there's a whole different slew of problems waiting for me in Arizona. Everything proceeded without me, people grew up and are graduating, friends grew apart and changed. Im not ready to face the reality of having more people torn from my grasp... I'll have to watch another stream of friends ship out to college...
I'm scared of it all.
I miss the way things used to be.
And next year, I'll start all over again, thrown into another different world, naked and vulnerable. Fuck.

Fuck.

I want to curl up and cry......
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'll be seeing you in every lovely summer's day
In everything that's light and gay
I'll always think of you that way
I'll find you in the mornin' sun

Current Mood: melancholy
Sunday, April 22nd, 2007
10:06 pm
He just winked his eye and said "Man, be cool."
Eventful weekend!

Friday: 4/20
-Was invited to a couple parties
-Ended up working in the woodshop instead
-bonded with TA
-got mostly finished with FS final

Saturday: 4/21
-Woke up late
-Grocery store
-Underestimated the amount of groceries I was getting
-Almost got hit by a car while in a crosswalk with groceries
-Got two little dudes to help me back to the dorm
-did NOT break the eggs by some MIRACLE
-Made crazy dinner for MITers
-Watched a lot of MST3K (and a little Terminator 3 against my will)

Sunday: 4/22
-Up at 11
-Mike L showed up
-Watched first half of The Royal Tenenbaums
-Traveled to Harvard Square
-Sang through my first tattoo with Sky (he said that I gave him "the shivers" when I sang "All of me", it kept my mind off of the pain)
-Indian food
-Shopping (Mike is quite a shopper, *giggle*)
-came home and watched the rest of The Royal Tenenbaums

currently, homework with Rachel, as she accidentally(?) eats paint

...Ow, my tattoo is sore.

Current Mood: ecstatic
Thursday, April 5th, 2007
2:41 pm
There's something in the wind to show us we're right and tell us we're wrong
For some reason I woke up at 1 today completely wanting to do everything I need to get done.
Go to grocery store
Get prescription filled
clean entire apartment
make food to last for a couple of weeks
bake up a freaking storm
finish a ton of homework

It seems like a tall order to fill, but I think I can do it today. I got the day off for "Faculty Staff Day" so I can do pretty much whatever strikes my fancy. So Im going to be responsible. For once. Now, I must go put clothes on, dry my hair, and go out into the world.

"I will take you as you are
Please accept me as I am

Find your lonely life bizzare
I know its above you
I know its below me"


My emoticons make me really happy.

Current Mood: determined
Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
8:12 pm
Your Name: Felisia
Famous Musical Artist/Group: Ummm Sufjan Stevens.
Three-Letter Word: Meh
Color: Dark red
Gifts/Present: Uhhh... I like giving them.
Vehicle: Bike hoorah.
TV Show: Scrubs. Especially the episode "My Philosophy" right now.
Country: Italy!
Boy Name: Zach.
Girl Name: Malia.
Alcoholic Drink: Beer or Rum.
Occupation: Student, Intern, and Arteeest.
Flower: Daisies.
Celebrity: Christian Bale.
Food: Mashed Potatoes.
Something Found in a Kitchen: Ladle. I just like that word.
Reason for Being Late: Oversleeping.
Something You Shout: Well the most recent was "Hellhellhellhellhellhell!"

Current Mood: jubilant
Friday, January 19th, 2007
6:53 pm
All the sounds dream for me
So Im back in Boston after a month spent back in AZ.
I find it kindof funny that I missed home so much when I was here for first semester, only to get back home and miss Boston. I dont miss it right now, though I am missing people, but I suppose thats to be expected.

So, many new developments!
Im single now, which many of you must already know. I wasnt for a little bit there, but that wonderful young man and I are now just friends, which is cool. He's a great guy, so no worries.
I passed all of my classes, even though a great many of my teachers were TOTAL idiots first semester. Thank goodness that this semester I have a bunch of really intelligent, interesting teachers. No more half-assing and boredom for me!
I saw a boy that Ive known since I was about 8, and he is now all growed up and handsome. Never really got a chance to hang out during my winter break, but he seems intent on meeting up during the Spring. Awesome.

Lizzah and Michael, I miss you most of all.

Current Mood: artistic
Friday, October 27th, 2006
4:16 pm
Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo!
Felisia: "I feel old, Tricia"
Tricia: "You ARE old."
Felisia: "Im like... geriatric."
Tricia: "...I don't know who that is."
Felisia: "It's not a person, it's a term for OLD people."

Its officially been the best way to start a new year of my life. Im creating some wonderful art, hanging out with great friends, I really like someone and the feeling is MUTUAL, I am completely happy.

Im nineteen years old, therefore, Its quickly nearing the end of my teendom, and I guess my childhood. Im glad of it. At the same time, Im excedingly happy that Im still embracing my childish nature.

Going to see the Prestige today with Eric and Dale, I believe. What a great birthday. I still miss home, but everyone has done a great job making me still feel loved, even when theyre all far away. Love you all in AZ.

~If i get you in the loop when I make a point to be straight with you then~In lieu of the innuendo in the end know my intent though~I brazillian wax poetic so hypothetically~I don't wanna beat around the bush~

~Foxtrot Unifrom Charlie Kilo~Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo~

Current Mood: giddy 'cause its my bday
Saturday, October 21st, 2006
3:31 pm
The most [sluttiest] woman EVER around...
I basically spent my entire friday and most of Saturday with Eric. So... heres what we did.
Wait... this may not be the best thing to tell all you people...

Oh well.

So, I go over to Erics place at MIT at around seven PM, after having gotten a bunch of paint for a project that Eric asked me to do. So I get there, prime the door white, and proceed to do a really bitchin rendition of Buddy Christ on Eric's door. Yeah.. So then all these creepy MIT people start coming by and craning their fucking necks in to stare at me like Im a fucking television and make commentary on the painting that Im doing. ERIC didnt even fucking know some of them. Its like, who the fuck are you people? But yea, I sort of shrank into a nervous mess over all the publicity. I actually heard people down the hall saying "Did you see Jesus?"
Christ.

So yeah, I quickly banged out a really nice version of him (though, being me, Im still obsessing over the minor mistakes... which no one else seems to notice so fuck it). It took me about 3 hours, so I was pretty pleased.. like a man can seem pleased. So then, the creepy MIT people started coming back to stare at its completed majesty, and to invite Eric and I up to the 5th floor for the craziest fucking party Ive EVER FUCKING ATTENDED. I go to ART SCHOOL. I have never seen shit like this. There were guys with gas masks! A dude with a fucking CLAW HAND! and of course, naked women EVERYWHERE. But none of those naked women were having sex. Except one. Just... one. This random ass chick who had like 4 guys doing all kinds of shit to her all AT THE SAME TIME. MY GOD. EVERYONE saw! EVERYONE.

So yeah, Im not going to go into the embarassing shit that that Eric and I did during the night. That story is for another time and another place. Yeah... pretty much. We will probably freely and proudly tell you in a different setting. All you have to know is that it was FUCKING WICKED. and... a stripper pole may or may not have been involved.

Anyway, I'll just leave you all wanting more and going "SHIT! STRIPPER POLE!? WHAAAATTTT?!"

Neh neh neh neh neh neh, ha ha ha ha ha ha.

Sincerely Yours,
Lisi

Current Mood: accomplished
Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
1:05 pm
New monsoon is amazing...
Yes. I stand by it.

So Columbus(t) day weekend turned out to be somewhat interesting after all. I went to one of the greatest shows Ive ever been to, the band is called New Monsoon and theyre a jam group. I danced like a fucking child. It was so ridiculous. My legs and ass still hurt from dancing so hard.

You know when you're in your room by yourself, everyone is somehow out of the house, and you turn your music up as high as it will go and dance like a fool? That was me for three hours in a semi-crowded bar. Good good times. We got to meet all the members too. Oh my god, best night since I got here.

Anyway, things are shaping up to be pretty amazing lately. Im doing really well, apart from having been lonely and bored while all my roommates were gone this weekend. Somehow I brought the warm Arizona weather with me, because all you AZ people seem to be complaining about the chills, and Im here, blessed by warm sunny days in OCTOBER in BOSTON. It makes no sense.

Anyway, Im tired because last night I saw Fearless, then hung out with a friend, then talked on the phone, only to realize that it was 5 AM and I had an 8 AM class so I might as well just stay up and not sleep. Yes. Im not sure if that was a good decision or not, but right now, Im going to go take a nap.

Cheers.

Current Mood: exanimate
Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
12:42 pm
Its been a good run...
Listening to: Bittersweet Dirt Off Your Shoulders [jay z and the verve], Baby Im Amazed [the beatles], Waste [phish]

Its strange. Ive started liking rap since Ive been here. I blame, and also thank Tricia. Everything is really good here. Its surprising just how happy I am right now. Things have been straightening out to be exactly the way that I want them. Im making closer friends, and those closer friends like to play Halo 2 until 2 AM, and then cuddle til 3 AM. Eric came over last weekend and completely reaffirmed my wanting to stay in Boston. We went out to see Little Miss Sunshine, then came home. made quesadillas, and watched Wizard people. Thank god for him. He made it all better.

Not to mention that Chase texted me for the first time in a very long time. When I read it, I was so happy that I almost burst into tears. We've been on this little level of OK for a while, but it hasnt really been good. Its been to the point where we're not exactly comfortable enough to talk to eachother, but that's finally changed. I feel so good.

Im still missing everyone though. But I'll be home for Thanksgiving. Counting the days...

Current Mood: bouncy... heeheehee icons.
Friday, September 29th, 2006
5:17 pm
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.


1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship? Unfortunate misunderstanding.

2. When was the last time you shaved your legs? about a week ago.

3. What were you doing this morning at 8am? Trying to sleep on the couch instead of my bed because my roommate snores.

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? Running as quickly as I could to turn in my Art history takehome quiz.

5. Are you any good at math? No.

6. Your prom night? Emma's house for 2 years. First year slept under a coffee table, second year had Horror flick in emmas bed with my three favorite people.

7. Do you have any famous ancestors? Um, I suppose my mom was somewhat famous because she was Ms. Indian America when she was 19.

8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school? Yes. Oh yes indeed.

9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile? Yep.

10. Last thing received in the mail? A bunch of useful stuff from my mommy.

11. How many different beverages have you drank today? Coke, Milk, water, Earl Grey tea.

12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines? Of course.

13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to? Greenday. Hahahahaha.

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? yep.

15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had? Braces and extractions.

16. What is out your back door? Um.. at home, its my pool, here in Boston, I dont have a door, but I can see the parking lot, and some of the city out my window.

17. Any plans for Friday night? Laundry and movies.

18. Do you like the ocean? yes.

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas? Nope, but I have gotten one just randomly before. It was the best week of my life.

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium? Yes.

22. Something you are excited about? Seeing Eric sometime, Kace coming to visit, Danny coming to visit, AMADO coming to visit, going home for Thanksgiving.

23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO? red.

24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive? no. I dont believe so.

25. Describe your keychain: Tied up knots of my school keychain, with my massart ID (me making a hilarious Cheshire cat face)

26. Where do you keep your change? In my wallet or in the little Sake cup that brendan made for me.

27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people? Um, Senior speech.

28. What kind of winter coat do you have? I dont. I should probably get on that.

29. What was the weather like on your graduation? Very warm. Yea... Arizona.

30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? Closed here in Boston, open a crack in Arizona so the kitty can get in and out.

Current Mood: sleepy
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
8:26 pm
The cells I am at the moment...
Its all catching up to me. The fact that I'll be leaving soon, and all of my friends are departing before I do. I guess it would be more difficult if I left before everyone, because then I would have to say goodbye all at once. But this hurts... feeling little pieces of me taken one my one. Kace is leaving in 3 days, McGarrett in 6, Ben sets out on the 21st. I get to wave at their backs as they go on to their own new lives.

This is scary. I watched a bunch of my friends go in the years before, but that was different somehow. Now its as if these people that have been fused to me are being ripped away... like someone is taking my limbs.

Too many things happening at once. But then, I guess when it rains, it pours. Ive lived in Arizona all my life, and have watched the monsoon rains come down like water falls. But I guess I just realized that now. When it rains it pours. I'm starting to miss home already.

Current Mood: gloomy
Monday, August 7th, 2006
8:06 pm
The fall.
I climbed onto my roof today, without the aid of a ladder. Not first considering how I would get down after the fact.

Sitting up there, just relaxing, thinking, and looking at the setting sun, it made me feel more centered than I've felt in a while. Too many things have happened: I think I've lost the understanding that I had with someone I've known all my life, my grandmother has been completely changed by a stroke, I just got dumped, we're moving out of the house that I grew up in, Im leaving the only home I've ever known in 23 days... I couldnt really handle these things for a while... but my friends have made me happy. When I crawled up on the roof, all the things that I've been shushing and stuffing away into the back of my mind just disappeared. It was the most comforting thing I've ever experienced. I realize just how much I'm going to miss home now. How much Im going to miss this house. How much Im going to miss everyone.

I'm not a kid anymore I suppose.

After I sat up there for almost an hour watching the sun fade away, it started to rain a little. I saw some lightening not far off. Since there was a T-storm warning on the news a little while ago, I decided to leave the roof. But I didnt have a ladder, and the way that I had climbed up was pretty impossible to climb down.
So I jumped onto the grass. I couldve broken my legs or my arm. But I didnt hurt myself. I rolled onto my back on the lawn, and laid in the rain with my dogs.

I feel better.

"The sun goes up and the sun goes down/I drag myself into the town/All I do I want to do with you
Everyday I'm at my desk/At my desk I'm like the rest/All I do I want to do with you
The sun goes up..

The cells I am at the moment will soon die/But I will be here/Oh I'll still be here
The cells I am at the moment will soon die/But I will be here/Oh I'll still be here

The sun goes up…

Everyday everyday everyday..."
Friday, August 4th, 2006
10:25 am
Found the words I sought, is this the stage I want?
Listening to: one of the Mike Mixes = 12:51 [the strokes], When You Sleep [cake], Cold Blooded Old Times [(smog)]

Im geekin out right now, man! I just discovered that for one of my requirements as a freshman at Massart I have to take some liberal arts courses, but I checked out all the course descriptions, and though they do have titles such as "Social Studies" and "Constructive Writing" and all of those sorts of things, they are REALLY cool classes.
Dude, Film Viewing and Criticism, Masters of Film, Shakespeare Film and Print I & II, History of Popular Culture in America, Seminar in Romanticism, Biology of the Figure!
This is going to be fucking awesome!
Its all the artsy versions of things that bored me in school! AHAHA!

I am now very excited.

The boy finally talked to me last night. Which was comforting. I asked him to be my friend. He said that he would always be my friend. I feel so much better. I still want to keep on trying, to keep on talking, and too keep on pursuing just fixing this rather than leaving it behind. We shall see.

Im going to finally go see the house that we're moving into in a week. Ive seen the outside front, but havent been inside or in the back yard. I suppose it doesnt really matter too much what I think of the house, Im only going to be living there for some months of the year anyway.

My friend Robert may also take me out to a tattoo parlor soon. Which should be terribly amazing. He wants to get something, and I, being the little would be tattoo artist, will watch and become accustomed to the blood and such. It will be awesome.

Life is looking up a little bit for me.
Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
3:30 pm
Adventure, Excitement? A Jedi craves not these things.
Listening to: Blister In The Sun [violent femmes]

Happy Birthday, Kevin Smith!

In celebration of this momentous occasion, I want to go see Clerks II. Dammit, I want to go.

I have spoken.

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